diary demands

Yes, i am here to blog my thoughts again...but i guess blogging costs me tryst with my diary ....I can sense the resentment my diary have towards me ...And its justified.....past few days i am just blogging at the cost of my diary .....

Just like this blog which is a public one,my diary also appeal attention ....but it has a comprehension that it can't be without my pen working on its pages........I can't disregard my long time companion anymore......for some time i have to stall to blog .....To satisfy and assure my diary that its not forsaken ......

COOLING OF PERIOD DEAR BLOG ........:)

i realize it's strenuous to manage two good friends because only one can be your best one ....:(

Lost

I feel lost,caught up in a world which is nothing more than an illusion .....and my days are fading away ..These all thoughts surround me like clouds of pathos,no reason in specific....but still justified....maybe i am overemphasizing on the meaning of everything around and in particular my life...

I feel sad what i had yesterday, i don't have today and what i have today won't be mine for long.....time and priorities change in life......And the change cost you your precious one's ,i think time and priorities take a heavy toll ..they charge you your valuables.....

And being caught up in this fashion ,i surcease to write...because i know whatever i would write in such moments will be filled with pathos,pessimism,negativity.....draining me of the left over optimism which would help me to recoup and come to terms with my life again,to be lost again in the illusion ...

"lost in this unknown world,i chase the unknown"

Colors of perception

The perfection of acumen of an individual depends upon the persons level of flexibility,there are different colors to every thing.......but most of us fail to see them...What we do is we paint people and situations in black and white...without comprehending completely.....

I used to possess an uncanny ability of painting things in black and white.....as a result my vision was chained....I was never able to apprehend the entire subject ....I became unaware that things can have a different shade also.....I am extremely obliged to my "benefactor" for making an effort to get me out of the pit i was digging for my self.......which would have driven me into complete ignorance .....There are other shades also and we can see them only when we don't attach anything which we have experienced in the past to the present subject..there are several factors by the dint of which we try to connect the past to the present---- some of them being "

c, - closure, proximity, similarity, continuity

We tend to take situations and assay things accordingly .. We start taking situations and people as "for or against us" without unconditional familiarity.......While perceiving we should be free from past images.....don't bottle up yourself ..by doing so you inhibit your freedom and growth.

“There are things known and there are things unknown, and in between are the doors of perception”

So you want to be a writer

If it doesn't come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don't do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your
heart and your mind and your mouth
and your gut,
don't do it.
if you have to sit for hours
staring at your computer screen
or hunched over your
typewriter
searching for words,
don't do it.---- CHARLES BUKOWSKI

The craft of writing demands random flow of thoughts,you write the best when you really don't need to strain your mind for every single sentence...It's difficult to move your pen or hit on the alphabets of keyboard when your mind is juggling with several contrasting thoughts...Writing something demands free flow of thoughts...I have an appetite for writing at the moment but i can't decide which thought to feed on ......baffled i layoff as for now......:)

Woman in india

Excess of anything is poisonous......Be it love,devotion, dedication and other synonyms ..Devotion should never cost you your dignity....But its lamentable that in our country allegiance demands dignity....particularly of the woman devotee , Margaret Elizabeth noble quoted in her book "the web of Indian life"

"Indian brides comes to her husband much as the western woman might enter a church.Their love is a devotion ,to be offered in a secret"

A woman in Indian society gives more than what she is capable of to her husband and his family and is still in debt.Her devotion is divine...giving yet never expecting ....But the sad part of the truth is her devotion is rarely valued...A bride in Indian culture is no better than a maid servant......no denial times have changed ... India have experienced a lot many revolutionary seasons.....but the reality remains the same for most of the woman..

A woman in Indian setup commands respect till the time she is capable of producing, satisfying men.....and above all acts subservient to the opposite gender..Anyone who tries to voice against all these indignities is tagged "masculine"..."undignified"......

Woman in our country is regarded nothing but just "mere property of men"......

Lessons

"Observation should be free from judgement and opinions .....a clean observation just demands watching ...watching without contemplations,......"

Alliance with the "thoughtful" is always accomplishing .......

We learn our biggest lessons in our day to day confabulations ,only our ignorance bury them the moment they surface ,you don't need to search for a "guru"...or an enlightened one....any two individuals who care for wisdom in life will suffice..

In a very ordinary conversation with the person whom i would like to tag as my "benefactor".....I learned why my observation is flawed...the moment i encounter a situation or some beings....I start forming opinions and start judging .....truly speaking i have been deceived the most by my opinions and judgement....and it's not difficult to trace the reason .....Obviously its my hastiness ...i think most people don't evaluate the situation completely but start forming opinions and that is the point they start loosing a part of there vision .....The recipe for an impeccable observation is just "observation"...free from any other attribute...

In the words of my benefactor -

"The moment you come across a person or a situation your observation is accompanied by your judgement,you keep brooding over one single aspect of the entire subject and by this your observation is left incomplete and biased.........."

How true we make opinions ,get trapped and are never able to apprehend the real,the truth ......

Feelings

I am feeling low,possibly the kind of low that had caught me on several occasions...i know its natural....But what appears quizzical to me about the feeling is.,that it grips me on occasions when its most unexpected......

A hectic day when i would hardly get time for my meals,or a day which was filled with belly laughs ..spending my whole day with friends yet when i am back on my way the feeling starts gripping me.....May be the "i" demands something which i am unable to comprehend....

This emptiness leaves me baffled.....as i mentioned it, this is not the first instance when i am feeling so.This low have gripped me previously ,the departure of the feeling is also very stymie as its arrival was .....hours of "inexplicable despondency" ..Then suddenly a mundane matter will take over it....the low will sink down but i know it persists somewhere in me...... Only to resurface in future..... in suitable seasons..

Disenchanted "c"

A part of us is never satisfied.....the "c" in us..we keep on disregarding it .......provided it being the cardinal part of our existence..

we are "conscious" of our identity.,but hardly of our acts.....

loneliness demands

"Human beings are social beings"

The statement quoted above involves no fallacy ..we demonstrate to all that we are happy being a loner....nothing calms and pacify us as much as loneliness does......i agree it does but to a certain level....beyond which we demand synergy...no one can grow alone...growth of "cognizance" demands interaction ..without knowing the world you cannot know yourself....retiring from the world is desired to explore the real "i"..but the discovery of "i" demands a prior journey into "non-me".....you cannot know what you really support without knowing what others oppose...

The "i" is possible to retrieve only after we shun all the "non-me",elements we have....and for assessing the "non-me",we need to take on the world....:)

Talking beyond retrieving the "i"

its vital to interact...for growth ,the world does not always damage you.... alliance with the good in it....renders us more accomplished ....

Goodbye

No goodbye in life is final,till the time we are alive.The last of all goodbyes comes wrapped in death...The last one is-----"The farewell given to us by life"

Thoughts in chaos

when thoughts are in anarchy....we feel clueless..nothing seems to go right...at times the situation is not even that coarse as we imagine it to be....we normally overestimate the problem.....and resort to unconventional ways of thinking and handling the situation......thats leaves us all the more bewildered..

Required from us is just a rearrangement of our priorities .....thats what makes things to work again...

the biggest error we humans make is "underestimation of our opportunities and overestimating our predicament.."

Being woman

The following is an abridged version of an article that appears in the Aug. 9, 2010, print and iPad editions of TIME magazine.

The Taliban pounded on the door just before midnight, demanding that Aisha, 18, be punished for running away from her husband's house. Her in-laws treated her like a slave, Aisha pleaded. They beat her. If she hadn't run away, she would have died. Her judge, a local Taliban commander, was unmoved. Aisha's brother-in-law held her down while her husband pulled out a knife. First he sliced off her ears. Then he started on her nose.

source:http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,2007238,00.html

This is all about being a woman,can any act be more bestial than this,a person trying to escape the atrocities and the torture of her in laws......sorry!

i think i used the wrong terminology "person"

person.....stands for a "human being"

and woman are no where treated close to humans.....

Mother Teresa, the "Saint of the Gutters"

"It is not enough for us to say, 'I love God, but I do not love my neighbor,'" she said, since in dying on the Cross, God had "[made] himself the hungry one — the naked one — the homeless one." Jesus' hunger, she said, is what "you and I must find" and alleviate.--Mother teresa.

Crucification of Jesus reflected ......the hunger.....the deprived...the abandoned ......the crucification conveyed the eternal message.....Jesus passed on the message....what we have to look after...who needs our care,

and the --

memento

:that as long as we are among humans,let us be humane"

PHILOSOPHY OF LIFE

Failing to connect .......

i guess i have not yet chalked out one for myself.....or somewhere its struggling to come to terms with my life....the day the two will work in harmony.....my life with tune on the song written for me .......by almighty!

Chimera

What a phantasm life is!

all the time " ad vitam paramus" (we are preparing for life)

......wasting every passing second to make the coming worth ....without realizing...time is eating a bit of life out of us with every passing second....we hardly live the life we prepared for.........

Credulous hope supports our life, and always says that tomorrow will be better. ......:)

-the biggest mis impression of all

Carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero.......which means ... Seize the day, trust as little as possible in tomorrow.

quote

"No audience is without its idiosyncrasies of belief"

-salman rushdie

(midnight's children)

THE SELF

Human beings are self absorbed ,by the dint of which they pose themselves in a surreal and unconvincing way.They disregard what is cardinal and in a marked degree get involved in all the vanities of world.....which cause them unquantifiable loss,and outdistance all the good..

Amidst all this the abhorrent is ever gripping the self .....By being self absorbed the self abusive in him comes to life.Like this he destroys all that he possess .The evil in him grows like a wildfire on the dry grass.He becomes self congratulatory ,self centered.......and these all are squeezing the good out of him day by day....And the terminal destiny he becomes "self contained"..

The mischievous "self" attains ne-plus-ultra stage...One should always remember that " man's life is a war against malice of men......" The self contains all "Good and Bad" ....."God and Satan"...Irony lies most of us nurture the wrong in us and become enslaved for eternity..

The only known key out of the maze is of "self assessment" and "self awareness".Love for wisdom should subjugate any other hankering of ours..One should be capable of "self deprecation when ever one tends to grow "self indulgent".Remember the "self" is vulnerable ,fragile and on top of anything else easily disconcerted.....so all i want to say is .....take care of your "SELF"....:)

random thoughts

"Sometimes my shadow mocks on me....
.and at the same time is amused that it's following the right person or not.....:P,
there are certain individuals whom i term "fossils" ...
whom i want never to snoop an inch in my life....
but at some instances or rather to quote them as "accidents".....time traps me with them ,
i try to give my best to them,such are my exceptionally weird traits ,
i think some of you do share the same with me....if not then i need help for sure....:P
and this is the time i believe in one of my quotes the most..

"I AM A DEEPLY SUPERFICIAL PERSON"

dialogues of plato

" Our aim in founding the state was not the disproportionate happiness of any one class,

but the greatest happiness of the whole...."